Wednesday, March 24, 2010

What if?

What if the world changed? What if everything we knew, just crumbled and fell apart? Would we understand the changes? Would we have the courage to change with it?

Just some thoughts running through my head, maybe it will lead somewhere unexpected?

Tara/Terra?

Flagpoles like steel appendages, carrying tattered banners, reaching up to the celestial rooftop seeking refuge...

My skin aches for the warm kisses of the sun, it aches to be bathed in the yellow light. But the light is not yellow, but a hazy orange, filtered through the leaden cloud sky. The air is choking, marring the sky. No longer can I see blue fields, with white cushions foaming and frothing up above.

The ground below sparkles, hiding little gems, glinting and winking in the light. I cannot reach for them, they are not real, but the reaching is a give away. Something that shows that I do not belong. But I don't belong. I look around, instead of lush groves of trees, stone and steel surround me. I am becoming homesick.

I learned about clogged arteries, that sometimes happen in humans, choking the flow of blood. That's what I see, when I look at the pavement. Cement clogging the arteries of the Earth, keeping the flow of the land from moving freely.

How much did we try to control?

Pictures have chronicled the progress we made. How we tried to make things easier. But pictures fade, their subjects cannot last forever. Just like the structures we built. Nothing lasted in the wake of its finale.

Through all our technological advancements, through our medical miracles, we forgot about balance. In order to have warmth, we must know what it is like to be cold. In order to have life, we must know what it is like to die.

*I think that's all for now, I can't think of what else to add to this, but it's fermenting, I can feel it. It's there, it wants out. SLW

Monday, January 18, 2010

Beginnings...

Heather stood blinking wearily in the light of a new dawn falling through the pane of her windows. Disoriented and vaguely unaware of her surroundings she plods along the corridors of her still and hushed house. The change from plush carpeting to cold tile floors and the increase of light told her that she had made her way to the kitchen, chancing to open her eyes a little more, she could see the kitchen gleam, empty of anyone but her. No dishes were out, no chairs were moved, nothing seemed to speak that there was anyone else with her. Upon the table that stood nearest the screen doors there was just an envelope sitting in the middle, sealed and her name scripted upon it’s creamy white surface in an unfamiliar hand writing.

Heather looked out the window taking in the morning light. Something felt different, though her house looked the same, outside there were fields of tall grasses, a constant breeze combed through the blades, just reasserting how silent the rest of the world was. But what Heather saw outside made no sense to her, as her house was not found in any fields, but rather on a city street block. There were no noises of traffic, no sound but the wind and silence. Heather picked up the envelope, hoping that maybe it may have some answers. She thought it was odd that she felt no panic at being someplace that she should not be.

After opening the envelope, the paper inside fell out into her hands. As the paper’s weight hit her skin thoughts and memories flood her mind’s eyes of lilacs, and baby’s breathe. Sunlight hitting and breaking upon creeks on warm summer days, she remembered tastes of honeysuckles and lemonade. Little beads of tears trickled down her eyes as she felt like they were lost memories. The paper itself was unremarkable; slightly yellowed with age, letters written by hands in a handwriting that was unfamiliar and known at the same time. As she read the letter even more sensation came back to her:


Dear Lavender,


It seems cruel that one so young should come to this place so soon in a lifetime, but here you are. This is the place of choices and you have plenty. Those who have never made up their minds what they believed in come here to learn and to grow and to make a choice. Death is never the end but really the beginning. My advice is to follow the little bird and learn all that you can.


Love,

Uncle Tom


Heather stared at the letter after she finished reading it. More memories flooded her mind, images of an elderly man with white hair, slipping her little mints, always calling her Lavender, no matter how often he was corrected that her name was Heather. As these thoughts passed through her, Heather stared off into the distance, the golden strands of grass waved and basked in the sunlight. There was no cloud, though the sky looked out of place without the fluffy white pillows drifting in the heavens. Out in the distance a small dark spot moved closer, getting larger and taking shape as it progressed. As it came near Heather, she could make out jewel tones of emeralds and rubies, bright and gleaming feathers upon the small body of a bird. A buttercup yellow beak opened and words came out.


“Hello Heather, I am to be your guide as you must make a choice as to where you wish to spend your afterlife.”

Heather gaped at the bird and seemed at a lost for words before she could actually say something. Slightly confused, for though not raised Christian, she lived a Western Cultured life and thought that she would only have 2 choices: Heaven or Hell. When she told the bird this, it shrugged it’s tiny shoulders with indifference and explained that though those are two choices, they were not Heather’s only choices. That because she never made a choice in life, her choices now were numerable depending on what she knew and how she chose.


“I am only your guide,” the little bird said peering at Heather with sparkling black bead eyes. “In fact as a bonus for you, you get to actually visit with all the ways you can spend your afterlife before you make the choice.”


Heather didn’t know what to say, she was at a lost of all words. Never in her wildest day dreams did she believe that she would be dead, nor that the choices that she made while living would have such an impact on her eternity. She could only imagine Heaven and Hell, she never gave much thought to other view points of death. It was intriguing and tantalizing.


Heather’s thoughts were interrupted. The little bird was impatient to start, as there are many ways to pass the afterlife.

Monday, June 02, 2008

This one's for the ads...

Facebook was being a whole slew of words with regards to my notes page that I decided that I would utilise this space since I renegged and started posting some of my writing on my notes instead of this page...

The ads that I'm inundated with while on Facebook are multiple, with only two really big categories.

First category, and the one that makes me all twitchy and uncomfortable, are the ads about looking for "love" or just a relationship, we'll call this that Love Category of ads. They usually have the catch phrase of "looking for love" or "25, and Lonely?" then they're followed by well go to this website and in 25 dates you can find love, or meet single guys in your area. I don't believe in online romances, call me old fashioned but I'd like to at least have the ability to touch you, at least be a friend first. What's even worse is that part of me misses being in a relationship, that there was a closeness with someone that I really miss, but it's not screaming at me to jump at the first available guy, I'm seriously done with that whole just blindly going forward because I've left a trail of wreckage behind me when I've done that and it's not pretty, I don't enjoy that. Maybe part of me is also scared of that same thing. When I get scared I lock myself away in a mental and emotional tower. I don't give myself away, I don't do anything that would put me in that pathway. So in turn, I am stagnated, I am still, I don't budge, and I don't move. And this is why these types of ads make me twitchy and uncomfortable because then I analyze the nuances of my being...

Type 2 are the IQ ads...alright, I'm pretty smart, I like taking IQ tests for the fun of it, but IQ tests being taken as an adult are quite useless...then theres the ones that say George W. has an IQ of 125...if that's the case I'm offing myself to come back as an amoeba so that I don't have to think about that scary fact...

Then there's the odd ads about different events happening in my Network...not very interesting, unless you count the Blue Jays mascot who's knitting...are you disturbed, because I am...

I had this startling realisation that someone reminds me of a very good friend of mine, which makes me miss this friend even more...

My parents think that my postings are depressing, or have a depressing tone to them, but if I were to write about how wonderful my day was, or how the sun's shining, and how happy I feel, I'd have a whole lot less to write...

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Unspoken

How easily we hide among the shadows of a dusty refuge
Lurking about and waiting for some sign of recognition
Lips move silently, mocking the cowards will
Freezing in fear that what we wish comes true
Knowing that when that moment passes by
We berate that uneventful time for what it truly was
A cowards leap
To never act upon our heart
A fearless soul
Trapped within a disobedient body
Water down what we know, but never forget the lesson
True wit never bears the sight of what we think
But live this lie that we call life and judge upon the dead
Those who cannot defend themselves have always been our prey
Lift ourselves beyond the just and placed one rung lower
Eyes that could never see the true worth of words unsaid
Speak only of what seems to be what is wanted
Never knowing
But never seeking
The end to our vicious circle.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

A Song for the Lost

Walk the empty streets
Wind howling in the trees
The only sound to reach my ears
Are lonely love songs sung in tears
A car speeds by, lights ablaze
But I ignore that hound of hell
The silent step that falls
Upon a ground soaked in lovers’ tears

The chill of nightfall
Burns across my cheek
Like a stinging slap from a heart of steel

I walk along those lonely streets
And hear a song that’s haunting me
A tune that’s sung a million times
Of unanswered questions and half-spun lies

Wandering this empty town
Filled with ghosts of long ago
Thoughts that fill pages of unused books
To be read with tired eyes

The Watchtower

-Prose fiction

Characters: Tristan-tanned, fluid black hair kept slightly long, deep blue eyes that change colour to the colours of the sea, broad-shouldered, strong looking; Chana-dark skinned, coarse and curly dark brown hair, brown eyes, tall, sturdy build; Aaron-pale skinned, short platinum blonde hair, light grey eyes, tall and sprightly; Sienna-rosy-hued skinned, long flaming red hair, amber eyes, small framed, lithe.

Plot line: The watchtower is a place where four people are the guardians of the four elements, Earth, Air, Fire, and Water. There are four stories, each one tracking the discovery of each guardian. The Guardians must work together to maintain the balance of the planet.

The first story is the tale of Tristan, who discovers his abilities to control water while at the University in Tairn. We are also introduced to the Headmaster, who wants to covet the guardians for his own gain. Tristan must come to grips with his destiny in order to search out the other three guardians.

The second story leads to the discovery of Chana who has been using her gift with the Earth to serve her village. Tristan finds her, and learns more about the destiny of the Watchtower through the visions of Chana's village wiseman. Again the Headmaster is bent on getting to Chana before Tristan, after failing to convert the younger man before.

The third story finds us in the Eastern country of Eothain where a young boy named Aaron discovers his ability to control the element of Air. He nearly loses his destiny through his reckless abandon towards life. The Headmaster actually reaches Aaron first, and promises a future full of riches and a comfortable lifestyle. Aaron is seduced, but then something happens to make him reconsider.

The fourth and final story finds Tristan visiting a cottage just outside Tairn where it all started for him. In this cottage is the final piece of the Watchtower, but also the greatest challenge. Sienna is oppressed by family, hidden from the world of light. Her feelings are sporadic, which causes her control over her element to be erratic at best. Her past comes to a head when it is discovered who her parents were.

Bienvenue au nouveau age!

This blog, though one of many will become my electronic writer's notebook. I love to write, and I write a lot, but sometimes it never gets written out, well that's all about to change.

I will post poems, and storylines, just to get them all out in the open.

When the time is right
And in one mind's plight
My fingers answer in due time
In fancy prose or dressed down rhyme
Please sit down in worldly comfort
And enjoy what has been made into rote.

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